i like ravens lol

oh no how does everything go by so quickly

DIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

and by that I mean endings


I really can't think of a better word.

what a beautiful day it is today!

diggin the hole deeper

I know what he's talkin about. I got it bad. I got it so bad

oh how I hate to hate to hate to say what i've been thinking when i've been drinking

packing up all my things, it's cloudy and grey and this siren keeps going off. It makes the strangest noise after a while, like when different pitches intercept one another and the noise goes straight through one ear and I can feel it traveling slowly to leave out the other. I really like it when that happens. I keep thinking of sundown and the smell of the main street and my blue bike, yellow flowers, patterned quilt, grass dust. I think I will miss this place, I do.

maybe its not that things change quickly, maybe its just that I don't know anybody

ffffffffuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

last night I ate in n out twice and I have absolutely no recollection of the first time I ate it

I can serve pizza with a kind face like I'm meant to be

oh man, all these people passing by and their eyes! their sweet eyes

I was stumbleuponing and this popped up, I had a dream about this place a long time ago and it was japanese and everything! I've never even heard of it before now.

I feel like I've lost it all.

and I mean everything

it's better when I stay in my damn hole. I get to be miserable in a completely different and controllable way

months fly by. I wanna make it stop

weather reports

skeleton's dexihood

how normal people navigate on a bicycle:


how I navigate on a bicycle:


I never know where I am going or think ahead and I am okay with that.


Today was a really nice day to be outside. I rode to new frontiers and got some kombucha, which I have kayleigh to thank for getting me drinking, then went into town to look for the beads shop I'm pretty sure exists somewhere in there with no luck. I'm no good at finding things when I'm lookin for em so I decided to give up and go to mitchell park to read. I did that and it was lovely and then these drunken men started playing frisbee around me so I decided to head back, but ended up in all these other places I wasn't really meaning to go to or not go to and there was a HILL. Then I got stuck in cal poly area again and almost ran over a couple, which was alright, and finally made it home to mush-tang vishahge!

Little Silverton has been doing a-okay! He really seems to like Geoff best and isn't fond of many of the other people who have come to see him, but he's warming up to me! Yesterday he took his little dust bath and it was the cutest thing. I am happy right now. It's been a week and two days since I've smoked a cigarette and I have no desire to do so again! Quitting was surprisingly easy once I decided I really didn't want to smoke anymore. Sure I got cravings, but it was real simple to think of somethin else and they'd go away. I figure the very hardest thing I have ever had to get over is still with me and I seem to be doing okay with it gone and living without, so giving up cigarettes was a breeze. Don't even have cravings anymore. Caaaaan't wait till the phlegm ball is gone! :D

I'm gonna make cookies. I hope any of you who read this are doing well! I miss you and care for you.